Thoughts...

• I know I am painfully behind on blogging, I have been having a hard time finding the motivation to do it.
• I feel guilty for not blogging since I know it's important and I will regret it later
• I have resolved myself to catching up even if the things I blog about may seem boring to others I need to get some things recorded.
• I had surgery on Friday, everything went fine.
• I am extremely emotional right now and I can't tell if it's my hormones leveling out or if it's raw emotions.  Probably both.
• My mom was with me in the hospital on Friday, I appreciated having her there.
• Aunt Valerie got me a beautiful necklace after my last miscarriage that had the birthstone of the baby I lost on it and his due date on the back.  I have not worn it since I found out I miscarried again.  Don't want to seem like I'm playing favorites.
• People who have never had a miscarriage do not understand what a profound loss you feel.  I was pregnant, that was my baby, it died.  It's not something you just get over and move on from.
• Terence and I are going back to the gym tonight for the first time in a few weeks.  I'm not looking forward to it.
• The weather has been so beautiful lately and we have been spending lots of time outside.  Mostly looking for new fishing spots for Terence. 
• We can cross Martha Lake off the list.  It was no good, too many sketchy people.
• Connor will be 4 in three months
• Corey will be 3 in 5 months
• All of my family will be in town this weekend!  I'm excited to see Jason
• I have a lot to be grateful for!