Threatened Miscarriage!

Terence and I had a heart stopping moment last night.  I'm blogging about it because I want to remember it and the sweet moments that came out of what was a very scary thing for us.  As you know I am 13 and a half weeks pregnant right now.  Last night as Terence and I were going to bed I went to use the restroom and realized that I was bleeding, very heavily.  I yelled for Terence and he came in to see what was going on.  After observing the situation he and I both decided that I needed to get to the emergency room asap.  I LOST it.  I became an absolute mess.  Terence, fortunately kept a very cool head.  He called one of my best friends over to our house to watch the kids so he could go with me.  I thought about just going by myself to the emergency room but the thought of being told I was miscarrying by myself was terrifying!  Before my friend got to our house I asked Terence to give me a blessing.  I was so glad that he was able to do that for me. It gave me some peace and calm in a very scary situation.  As we set out for the hospital it was dumping snow of all things!  I tried to calm myself down but I could not stop crying!  I was shaking, I think more from fear and shock then from anything else.  All this time my sweet husband kept a very cool head and calmly reassured me that whatever was meant to happen would happen.  I just could not believe that I would lose this baby this far along!

We got to the hospital and got checked in.  Again, thank goodness Terence was there.  I was not even able to speak to answer the questions.  We were led back to a waiting room and both sat in silence waiting for the doctor to come in.  Anytime there is bleeding the first thing a doctor will do is an ultrasound.  He wheeled in the mobile sonogram machine and began the exam.  As he started he told us he was able to see the baby.  I knew the baby was still there so that was not very reassuring.  He continued looking, trying to find the heartbeat.  Before he could locate it the baby moved and kicked.  We were able to see it on the screen.  I looked over at Terence and saw him let out the biggest sigh of relief I have ever heard.  I could feel the relief emanate off of him.  Instantly his calm made me calm.  After that the doctor was able to locate the source of my bleeding.  It's called a subchorionic hemorrhage.  Basically it can be caused by many different things but it's just bleeding in your uterus.  The good news was that it is most likely not life threatening to our sweet baby.  After a couple more tests and some discharge instructions we were sent home.  Both of us relieved that the baby was OK but nervous about this possible complication.  I was instructed to be on bed rest until I was able to get in to see my normal OB today. 

Terence worked from home today and took AMAZING care of the boys and me.  I was able to get in to see my doctor at 1:30.  They did another ultrasound and this time on a much larger, more detailed machine.  I was able to see the baby's heart beat, he was moving and shaking, kicking, rolling, just about as active as he could be.  His heart beat was 150 and it took three times to try and get that because the baby was so active that he kept moving before they could get it.  I still have the hemorrhage and I do need to take it easy until it clears up but they expect it to go away without any further complications. 

It's experiences like this that make me so very grateful to have Terence as my husband and partner in life.  He was so calm and comforting and was exactly what I needed through this whole experience.  I genuinely thought I was having my third miscarriage last night and he reminded me that no matter what the outcome had been he is my constant in life.  When this crazy ride of raising kids is over and we are empty nester's he will still be there by my side.  I'm very blessed to have him!  I'm also very blessed that the baby is healthy and happy!